My colorful journey

When I was a little girl, my favorite color was always green. Light green, dark green, sea green, teal, lime green, emerald … every shade except for olive-green – was my ‘bestest best color in the world’. Those were the days when I’d buy only green toothbrushes and dream of living in Greenland (yes, yes, I knew it’s covered in ice. But oh, the name!)

This complete fascination for green undoubtedly stemmed from my unswerving loyalty to my school house, which was represented by this particular color. I’d wear a green badge and proudly represent my house (it was named Bhabha, after one of the most prominent scientists India has ever had) in inter-house competitions like quizzes and group songs. It was my house, my color. Green forever!

Unfortunately, forever lasted just a few days till after I was shuffled into Tagore House, whose color was blue. Although this kind of reshuffling occurred ever school year, I’d somehow managed to remain in one house for six years straight. And after being put in Tagore, though I tried my best to still love green, well … the people who now wore green were my rivals. They were the people whom I had to defeat. And look down upon. And defeat! If I supported green any longer, then indirectly I’d be supporting them.

After all, blue is a nice color too, right? It’s the hue of the sky, which is serene and content, and so incredibly vast … and of the seas and oceans, which have always attracted me (or is it just me? Doesn’t each and every one of you just long to go to the seaside … for the beach, the waves, the immense power of the water?).

But what really clinched the deal was that the Indian cricket team were the ‘Men in Blue’ … and that was quite, quite enough to make blue my favorite color. Hence, blue it was for the next few years. After a while, it became kind of reflexive … if anyone asked me which color I liked the most, pat came the reply, blue. No conscious thought involved.

Which makes it kind of surprising that now it’s purple which makes my day. You see, at some point I realized I like pink as well … and I don’t like to like pink, because it’s oh-so-girly! It’s right up there with Barbie dolls, and ‘cho chweet’s and ‘he’s so cute …’ and I was NEVER that girl!

It’s been commercialized and marketed and projected : Girls = Pink. And so I rebel against liking pink … but in a small hidden and buried part of my mind, I can’t help it. Which is why … I settled for purple. It has a little pink, to indulge in cute girly-ness, and a little blue, for the sane, calm, rational side of me (yes, I do have one). Purple is just the right blend. It varies from lavender and lilac to deep royal purple … plus, it’s the color of the wrapper of Dairy Milk chocolate. Case closed!

So now, I’ll have purple earrings and purple water bottles. But I also own an adorable pink jacket and a blue pencil-case. And I’ll always have a soft spot for green. I guess all those colors can live in harmony inside my heart after all. And I can look inside and choose … whether I’m feelin’ blue, or in the pink of health, or any other color at all.

Yes, magic really works!

β€œMagic Works”

Performed by The Weird Sisters in the Yule Ball scene … from the original soundtrack of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

 

This song is – there is simply no other word – magical. It’s gentle, it’s sweet, it’s promising … and by the time the chorus comes around, I’m completely swept away on a tide of swelling emotion, I’m falling into a nameless abyss, and yet I’m soaring as well. Rising, higher and higher, oh-so-gently. It makes me … believe. It makes me hope for something better … it makes me imagine I’m slowly swaying in this tiny universe of my own, and there are little sparkly stars swirling around me in slow motion … and it’s just me, and the deepest shade of blue merging with inky black, and the silvery spots of light. And that’s the whole world. It begins and ends right there. Time ceases to exist, all constraints released, all bonds slashed open … and all that’s left is truth and hope. And love, at least the promise of it. And if I keep dancing in the stars, well, I can achieve everything I’ve ever wanted.

I tried sketching this ‘feeling’ … my pencil couldn’t really capture the essence of it, but just to give you an idea :

Looks like Cinderella?

 

The tiny white dots are supposed to be stars, and they’re slowly swirling around. And the girl is supposed to represent me – I’ve got the curly hair right, but I only hope I’ll get to wear a floaty gown like this someday. πŸ˜›

It’s amazing how much a song can do to you!

 

 

What is Sunlit Prism all about?

Welcome!

This blog is about seeing the beauty in life. It’s about finding all that is appealing and fun, it’s my discovery of what presses my ‘happy’ button. (Hey, that rhymes!) This is basically going to be me gushing on about things which matter to me, and induce some strong emotion. It’s about not getting bogged down by mundane day-to-day matters, and becoming all jaded and cynical … it’s about finding reasons to smile and laugh and feel.

Yes, life can get tough and complicated, and sometimes the best of us feel disillusioned … and wonder what’s the point, anyway. We question our purpose, our goals, our means to attain the ends. We all have our personal demons to face. Getting low now and again is perfectly acceptable, but what matters is how long you stay there, and how soon you pick yourself up. And for that, if only you look around … you’ll find all those reasons to smile. It’s those little things which make you go on, you know? Listening to a song you loved once upon a time; watching the rain streak down a window pane while you’re warm and cozily tucked in bed; munching on a bar of chocolate; feeling the wind tantalizingly running its fingers through your hair; reading a new book, or just hanging out with your best buddies and doing nothing, really …

Ultimately it’s about seeing your own rainbow … splitting the white light of monotony into a splash of vivid colors.

I probably sound like Giselle from the movie Enchanted, or Anne Shirley of Green Gables … cheerful and positive and staunch believer of happy endings. I’m not like that, not much. But I’d like to be someone who brings happiness to others. And I can’t do that without being happy myself first. Which boils down to actually having a description of what makes me happy, all in one place, accessible when I’m down and out … which is here, Sunlit Prism.

Hence, this blog πŸ™‚

Of course, I may deviate a lot and blabber on endlessly about things which really bug me. But to start off, I’ll try sticking to the glass-is-half-full perspective. So come, pick up your prism and let’s start seeing rainbows all around!