As someone who’s lived away from home since the age of 17, I’ve spent a significant amount of time traveling to and from home. When I was in college, it used to be 15-hour overnight bus journeys or 20-hour train rides. Then I moved to the US about 8 years ago, and since then it’s been 20-plus hours of air travel each time I want to go home.
I find that whenever I’ve taken these long international flights, I don’t just put my mobile devices into airplane mode – I put myself as well. This is particularly true when I’m flying from India back to the US.
Do you know what I’m talking about? Is this a common first-generation immigrant phenomenon? Picture this: you spend months, if not years on end, thousands of miles away from your family. You get to visit home once a year, if you’re lucky – given the state of the world right now, it’s easily two to three years without seeing home. So when you finally get to make a trip home and get a few precious weeks with your people – before you know it, it’s time to leave, and you are swamped with a ton of powerful emotions. The millions of goodbyes you have to say. The sheer number of love and blessings and good wishes you carry with you. The amount of love is just overwhelming, like a cocoon surrounding you. And you never want to leave. The last few minutes at the departure terminal curb – saying goodbye to your parents, not knowing when you’ll see them next. The double-barreled swords of visa and COVID restrictions you’ll have to navigate to see your family again. Meanwhile, the other parts of your heart are tugging you the other way. Your husband of just over six months, whom you can’t really bear to be separated from. Your friends, who you see even less of, now that you have moved to a different city. Your independence, the life you painstakingly built for yourself from scratch – it all beckons. And so your heart is torn, yearning for all your loved ones to be at the same place, longing to be whole again. But that can only be done if they all collect in one room together. And given everything going on at the moment, it has been impossible to bring everyone together, not even for your wedding. And so the heart has no choice but to remain forever yearning, forever incomplete, forever aching.
And because you cannot afford to fully experience all those feelings when you’ve just reached the airport and have a 30-hour journey ahead – you turn off the signal, you go numb. You go into your airplane mode. You purposely put some distance between yourself and your emotions – and instead focus on the next step. You worry about your luggage being overweight. You sigh at the serpentine security queues. You fumble to take off your shoes and your jacket and your work laptop and your personal laptop and your kindle and your phone, and put them all in a tray without bumping into others or dropping something. You keep all your documents ready for the immigration counter. You glare at the idiots who don’t wear their masks properly; the very sight of exposed nostrils irritates you these days. You worry about reclaiming your baggage at the claim – visions of just standing at the carousel with the merry-go-round turning endlessly, delivering everyone’s bags but yours flood your brain. You hope that a freak storm doesn’t delay your flight – if it did, you’d have to rebook your connecting flights, painfully redo your PCR test, and pray to the universe that you haven’t caught the virus at some point during travel. You focus on getting through your journey with minimum hassle – because that is all that you can deal with at this point. Just trying to keep track of night and day, what time zone you’re in, what country you’re flying above – because you can’t deal with the painful emotions. If you let yourself feel them, you wouldn’t get on the plane in the first place. You’d be bawling your eyes out in the serpentine security queue, making it even harder for the agents to match your face to your already unrecognizable passport photo. You would be so sad, so broken up to be on a long unending flight, each minute taking you a mile further away from home – you couldn’t face it.
And so you activate your airplane mode when you’re flying. It’s not just for devices, you see.
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: the best part of being a Potterhead – apart from all the wonderful source material and the movies, and the tweets, and the cursed play I refuse to consider canon, and the newer fantastic movies, and Pottermore, and more, always more – the best part of being a Potterhead is the community.
Let me tell you about one of the happiest days of my life: the time I spent the entire day in The Wizarding World of Harry Potter at Universal Studios in Los Angeles.
Thrilled to be here!
It was a day I got to share with some of my closest friends, which was great, both because they enjoyed it thoroughly themselves, and also because they let me fully revel in my Wizarding World glee without thinking I’ve gone crazy. I’ve dreamed, day-dreamed, and pretty much lived in Harry’s world ever since I read the books all those years ago. A lifetime ago. I have traveled by the Hogwarts Express, been Sorted, flown Firebolts, and rode Hippogriffs a million times in my imagination. Was there ever a pre-Harry Potter Pooja? (Yes, actually, but that’s a whole other story.) Newer exciting fantasy series have come and gone, but nothing has ever managed to replace Hogwarts yet.
After years and years of obsessing so, I was finally here in Hogsmeade village! It was just as I pictured it – row after row of tiny shops with pristine snow-covered roofs. In addition there were wand stalls (here, the wannabe wizard chose the wand), and giant barrels full of Butterbeer.
I saw moving Wanted posters of Sirius Black. There were Gringotts ATMs to withdraw Muggle money. How considerate! I saw adults walking around in full wizarding robes, and children running around brandishing functional wands. Yes, the wands are interactive and you can actually perform certain spells in specific locations in Hogsmeade! There were little Pygmy Puffs you could adopt. Owl post that you could mail to yourself or to friends.
Owl post – lots of parcels to be delivered still!
The Frog Choir was in full form, with occasional dances and gymnastics by the Beauxbatons and Durmstrang visitors. There was old Mr. Ollivander, demonstrating how the wand chooses one very lucky wizard. I was really hoping to be picked for the demo, but I suppose the 9-year-old who was picked instead can maybe appreciate the experience just as much?! Oh, and Honeydukes! You could see why it’s a top destination for Hogwarts students. Fudge Flies, Sugar Quills, Peppermint Toads by the dozen – in candy stores like these, everyone is like a toddler on a sugar high!
And of course, there were all the Bertie Botts Every Flavor Beans and Chocolate Frogs you could buy, complete with Famous Witches and Wizards Cards. Do you know how big those Frogs actually are? I was stopped at the LAX airport for extra security later on, because they thought the giant frog-shaped figure in my bag looked very suspicious through the X-ray scanner!
The Three Broomsticks was incredible. The sheer attention to detail was impressive, from a little sign with three little broomsticks on it, to stern notices from the Ministry about underage wizards not allowed to be served alcohol. We had to stand in queue for lunch for nearly an hour, but it was worth it. I almost cried when I had my first mug of Butterbeer. I was worried it would be too sweet, too overwhelming, and I’d be disappointed. But it was sheer perfection. It reminded me of butterscotch ice cream, but in hot molten form – creamy and delicious.
And then of course, we got to wander through Hogwarts castle to get to one of the theme park rides. The ride was quite realistic, as we got to follow Harry on his broomstick above the castle grounds, swooping, soaring, and barely escaping being hit by the Whomping Willow. But before we got on the ride, we had the time of our lives walking through Hogwarts castle. I kept squealing with excitement as we wound through the greenhouses outside, walked underneath the talking portraits, and saw Dumbledore’s office, the Gryffindor common room, and the classrooms. It was quite surreal to finally, finally be physically present in the very place my heart has resided for the last 17-odd years.
Look how glorious Hogwarts Castle is!
I wish I could explain how I felt. I could use phrases like ‘magical’, ‘incredible’, and ‘dream come true’, but that’s not nearly enough to capture what I felt. Words are not enough. What I can tell you is that I walked around in a happy daze, happy but almost painfully so. My breath was caught in my throat, my face warm, and my heart pounding away, a big ball of emotion lodged just so, waiting to be released in the form of loud squeals, helpless laughter, or a tempest of I-just-can’t-believe-I’m-here tears.
You see, Harry Potter isn’t just a children’s series. It’s a beautiful glorious world, a fantastical one, sure, but also one that teaches us so much about our own reality, with incredibly visual examples. The Dementors, such a chillingly terrifying representation of fear and depression, and how the only way to keep them at bay is by intensely focusing on your most powerful happy memories. And by eating a lot of chocolate, of course.
The Mirror of Erised, showing the deepest, most desperate desires of one’s heart. What would you see? And how would you react to see it laid out so clearly? Would you get obsessed with that image and fade away to nothing, longing for something that can never be? Would you hide it from everyone, like Dumbledore did (at least so far – but The Crimes of Grindelwald isn’t out yet!), and claim all you can see is a pair of socks?
We learnt the lesson that evil can never truly be eradicated, but if we fight, and fight again, and keep fighting, we can delay its return. How love is the strongest power of all, even in a world of Fidelius Charms and Protego spells and Felix Felicis.
The characters, so complex and wonderful – we see loyalty in the form of 14-year-old Ron Weasley standing up on a broken leg and defiantly telling a presumed murderer that he’ll have to kill him before getting to his best friend. We see that heroines need not be classically perfect – that bushy-haired book-toting know-it-alls are incredible friends to have, and can rise up to save the day, over and over. And Harry. Headstrong impulsive Harry whose instincts are almost always right, and who learns the subtle difference between being dragged kicking and screaming into a battle to the death, and walking into the arena with his head held high. Why wouldn’t we love Rowling’s world?!
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: the best part of being a Potterhead – apart from all the wonderful source material and the movies, and the tweets, and the cursed play I refuse to consider canon, and the newer fantastic movies, and Pottermore, and more, always more – the best part of being a Potterhead is the community. All those diverse Muggles united by a common love. The ships, the fanfics, the head canons, the fervent debates about Snape’s redemption, whether Umbridge was worse than Voldemort, and which Hogwarts house we truly belong to and why – I love the way these books have inspired countless works of creativity, sparked endless friendships, and fostered a sense of community and belonging in the world. Because no matter who we are or where we come from, we know that Hogwarts will always be there to welcome us home.
After falling in love with Lisbon and being shocked by Venice, the next stop on my Euro trip with Swetha was Florence. By the time I left Venice, I was in exceptionally high spirits. We’d figured out how to navigate the cobbled Venetian streets and cross all the beastly bridges, we’d had delicious gelatos at the train station, and we were heading south – which had to be warmer than where we’d just left. We found rather luxurious window seats in the train, and as I pulled out my Kindle, sitting in a warm spotlight of sunlight and watching bright blue skies over bright blue waters – life was pretty great.
Here is the next (long-overdue) chapter of my European adventure:
After falling in love with Lisbon and being shocked by Venice, the next stop on my Euro trip with Swetha was Florence. By the time I left Venice, I was in exceptionally high spirits. We’d figured out how to navigate the cobbled Venetian streets and cross all the beastly bridges, we’d had delicious gelatos at the train station, and we were heading south – which had to be warmer than where we’d just left. We found rather luxurious window seats in the train, and as I pulled out my Kindle, sitting in a warm spotlight of sunlight and watching bright blue skies over bright blue waters – life was pretty great.
The view from my train seat!
When I walked out of the station, I was filled with a wonderful sense of self-confidence and assurance I had never felt in a new place before – this feeling of knowing a place before actually seeing it. It was both exciting and comfortable, without any apprehension or anxiety. Florence was bright and sunlit, there were wide paved streets, I’d already mapped out our 11-minute walk to the hostel, and this time Swetha and I would have an actual room all to ourselves, which we weren’t sharing with four or five other girls. Such luxury! Such excitement! Nothing could ever go wrong.
But of course, we spoke too soon. Three minutes into walking, the handle of Swetha’s much-battered bag broke off. After bumping our bags up and down the bridges of Venice, this didn’t come as a complete surprise, but it did make our lives harder. Now we were in a new city, facing an additional challenge of repairing or replacing a strolley bag before we left for Rome. While we had two days to deal with that, the immediate problem was of mobility – it was hard enough carting around our many bags while they were all intact. Anyway, this had a straightforward solution – we just hailed a cab to take us to our hostel (unlike Venice, Florence had actual roads and cabs! Already an improvement). We leaned out of the windows and pointed out the sights, the markets, the street artists.
Within no time, the driver dropped us off at the address we had. This turned out to be two imposing doors in dark mahogany, which wouldn’t budge unless we were buzzed in. The guy renting out the apartment was nowhere to be seen, so we waited until some other tenant of the building let us in. Once inside the lobby, we were faced by four long flights of stairs. There was a rickety glass elevator, which we called and called, but wouldn’t come to the ground floor. There was no way our bags would make it up the stairs, and of course none of us had functional phones to call our landlord – all because we decided to go old-school, and didn’t get data packs, or any kind of international roaming. So much for Florence being problem-free.
Eventually hunger won out, so Swetha and I left our bags inside the deserted lobby, pulled the mahogany doors shut, and hurried into the little deli next door. While I ordered some pasta to go, Swetha sought help from the proprietor, who took pity on us and called up our landlord himself. Ultimately, our very first meal in the lovely city of Florence ended up being cold pasta on the stoop of our building – so we could eat, guard our bags, and keep look-out for our landlord, all at the same time!
Finally, finally, we got to check in, the landlord taught us how to operate the elevator (first climb up the stairs to the first floor, call the elevator there, ride it to the ground floor, and THEN put your bags in to take upstairs – how silly of us to assume otherwise!), and we were off.
Our first stop for the day was the church of Santa Maria del Fiore. Being a close walk from our hostel, Swetha and I just strolled over to the cathedral complex in Piazza del Duomo. The facade of the cathedral looked beautiful, the bell tower stood tall and proud, but we rushed inside, to see the frescos painted on the famed octagonal dome.
A view of the cathedral and the bell tower
Inside the cathedral
The gorgeous Duomo!
At this point, Swetha and I had our first disagreement of the trip – she wanted to walk around the streets, and chat with the local artists to get a feel of the real Florence, while I wanted to go the touristy way, and climb all the 463 steps to the top of the Duomo and the viewing gallery outside, to get a panoramic view of the city just while the sun set.
So we agreed to split up, and meet in about 4 hours. Now this may not seem like a big deal, but at this point of time, this was very much out of my comfort zone. I’ve always claimed that I can either explore an unknown setting with at least one known person, or be all alone/with unknown people in a known setting. Wandering around a new city without the only person I knew sounded mighty uncomfortable, especially since we had no working phones to contact each other at any time.
But we did agree to meet up at a specific time, at a very specific location (this Christmas tree located exactly across the basilica entrance), and headed off on our own ways. And as I started climbing up the 463 steps to the top of the Duomo all by myself, I started feeling really good about it. It felt quite empowering – the realization that I didn’t need company to explore a new city, I could actually just do it on my own.
The climb wasn’t as tiring as I’d expected. Even though the steps were narrow and poorly lit, the occasional glimpses of outdoors were enough to spur me on.
Narrow stairways
The only light
Getting closer!
I struck up conversation with other people, tourists and locals alike. One particularly cute Italian guy seemed to find my India – New York – Italy backstory just as fascinating as I found his stories of Dante’s Inferno and the seven levels of hell. So instead of feeling lonely and intimidated, I ended up finding a companion who told me interesting tales, took photos of me (he owned a selfie stick, which I pretended not to judge), and took me out for authentic Italian caffè. That’s a pretty successful outing in my book. Plus, the view from the top of the dome was staggeringly beautiful – it was so worth the climb!
The view from the top!
The Campanile
And after a few minutes, the whole sky above the Tuscan countryside turned a blazing golden. It literally felt like I was on top of the world.
After climbing down from the dome, I wandered around on my own, went to the museum near by, and checked out some of the exhibits. I decided to do some shopping – sauntering in and out of shops, buying tiny Italian leather purses, calendars, bookmarks, and magnets. I walked into a store which had an entire Harry Potter display, and squealed with joy – these kind of things make a new place feel instantly like home. Pottermania is quite universal – although I’d definitely expect it in a city originally called Firenze.
By the time I met up with Swetha, we both had lots of tales and photos to share. We had a nice dinner, washed down with a dollop of gelato, and then headed home. While it was pretty great to finally have a room to ourselves which we didn’t have to share with five others, we did realize (after much struggling) that we didn’t really know how to pull the main doors shut and lock them. So we finally settled for locking the inside door, barricading it with a chair and hoping for the best. Pro tip: if you aren’t springing for an expensive hotel, just reserve a hostel room you share with multiple people – don’t attempt to find a cheap room for just two people and expect much security!
The next morning, we headed straight for the museums: the Uffizi Gallery with its long corridors full of statues, and artwork famous enough that it looked incredibly familiar when I did stumble upon it, such as The Birth of Venus, and La Primavera, which I learnt meant ‘spring’, and wasn’t just a type of pasta sauce. Both of these paintings were large enough to take up a whole wall each.
The Birth of Venus
La Primavera
We then went over to the Accademia to see Michelangelo’s David, which was as imposing and detailed as it’s made out to be. We also saw a display of the first ever versions of the piano, created by Bartolomeo Cristofori.
We ended the day on a serendipitous, magnificent note – street musicians! It was late in the evening, and we were walking around a plaza with incredibly detailed statues, lit-up fountains, the cheerful gurgling of water in the background, and the scent of warm pizza in the air. And in the middle of this casually beautiful scene: a handsome musician, playing plaintive tunes on his violin. Not the kind of music that makes you clamor around, bop your heads, and tap your feet with the beats – but the kind of mesmerizing music that creeps up on you, and fills up your soul with melancholia and pain, tinged with hope and the promise of love. The sort of music that swells up inside you, and clutches you, raw and true, so tightly in its grasp that your eyes well up with emotion hard to define, and you have to remind yourself to breathe. It was a moment out of time, out of space – a moment when all your barriers fall away, and the crowd is hypnotized and swaying to this music resonating deep inside, dropping their illusions of normalcy and sophisticated banter – we weren’t just a mix of tourists and locals individually dealing with our specific triumphs and losses – in the moment, we were all raw, real humans, unified by emotion. Our lives and issues may be different, as are the ways we cope, but we all recognize and respond to basic emotion.
The musician
Outside the Uffizi Gallery
Finally, after a lovely dinner which involved a baffling mix-up with our order (I swear we ordered something chocolate for dessert, but ended up with a single glazed pear), we headed back to the hostel. Since this was our last night in Florence, we finally had to figure out a solution to the broken bag problem. So despite being exhausted from all the sight-seeing, we headed off to various bag stores to ask about prices, and if they took cash or card. Of course they all needed cash, and that involved a detour to the foreign exchange counters, which were, of course, closed this late at night.
We finally decided to wake up early the next morning and tackle the problem before leaving to catch our train to Rome. This ended up being a whole series of unfortunate mishaps in itself – involving running back and forth in unexpected rain, forgetting to take passports to the foreign exchange, checking out the market right across the street for sturdy bags that weren’t expensive Italian leather, and trying to find a cab in the narrow alleys where our hostel was located – until finally managing to fashion a makeshift handle for Swetha’s handle-less bag using a strong belt. It wasn’t ideal, but it was enough for us to drag the bag all the way to the train station, just in time to catch the train to Rome.
Thus concluded the Florence chapter of my Europe adventure. I liked it a lot more than Venice – there was certainly the old-world charm and culture I was looking for, but it was interspersed with just enough modern conveniences to survive comfortably. I’m particularly fond of Florence because that’s the first place I realized how independent I could be – it was the first city I felt brave enough to tackle without a companion, without knowing the local language, without an internet connection. Florence was where I realized it’s fun to figure out everything on my own. And yes, in every city I’ve visited after Florence, I’ve made it a point to go off exploring all by myself. So thank you, Firenze, for that little bit of personal growth. I’ll see you soon!