A memory for my Pensieve

20160730_215920I am a Ravenclaw. My favorite subject is Charms, and I am particularly adept at producing a corporeal Patronus (it’s a Golden, er, silver Retriever). Potions is a close second; my current project is to brew a perfect batch of Felix Felicis over the next six months. I own a snowy owl as well as a purple Pygmy Puff.

I am, most assuredly, a Potterhead. I’ve loved the Wizarding World since I was 11, and J.K. Rowling and her incredibly detailed universe captured my imagination like nothing else. However, in spite of all the times I tried Levitating my shuttlecock instead of hitting it with my badminton racket, in spite of all the scrapbooks and zillions of sketches of Harry I made on the last page of every notebook, in spite of reading the books over and over till I could recite the chapters off my head – I have, for the most part, been a Potterhead in isolation.

Growing up, I have been laughed at, mocked, and gently rebuked for this obsession of mine. I’ve been reminded, multiple times, that this is all just a distraction, and I need to focus on reality. I lived in a world without midnight release parties, without crowds around me clamoring for new books the way I was – I grew up feeling different, feeling like I wasn’t understood – pretty much like every Muggle-born witch before she gets her Hogwarts letter. I grew up with my magic intact, but just better-concealed. Over the years, I have cultivated a casual, ‘oh yeah, I guess I like Harry Potter’ attitude, even though I know that deep down in my heart, it lives on in all its obsessive, many-splendored glory. In true Ginny fashion, I gave other stories a chance, became more comfortable in my skin, more myself – and yet, never truly gave up on Harry.

Yesterday evening, on the eve of Harry and Rowling’s birthday, I attended one of the many many midnight release parties for Harry Potter and The Cursed Child. And it was a revelation. People of all ages were running across the bookstore on scavenger hunts to find Horcruxes and Fantastic Beasts, making glittery wands for themselves, and playing across a giant chessboard. We all tried on the Sorting Hat, we decorated and left out socks for the House Elves (Hermione would be proud!), guessed the number of Bertie Bott’s Every Flavor Beans packed into the Triwizard Cup, and with the whole place decorated with House banners, owls and Dementors, Hedwig’s theme playing in the background – it was completely magical. I couldn’t help squealing for joy when I popped into the girls’ bathroom and found a troll. Such attention to detail! There was a Muggle wall, where everyone had put up lightning-bolt-shaped, funny, poignant, heart-felt messages about what Harry Potter has meant to them. This was it, in this moment in time… I found my tribe, my people. Yes, we were all crazy, but in the best possible way. And isn’t it absolutely incredible that one woman can write a story of such epic proportion that she inspires millions of people to dress up in robes, sport scars and flourish wands – one woman, causing such multi-generational mass hysteria! If that isn’t magic, I don’t know what is. Being there, celebrating Rowling and her world, surrounded by people who were unapologetically reveling in their mutual wizardry – it felt like coming home. Finally being wholly accepted, and celebrated for who I was , what I loved… after all these years, I’d finally made it to Hogwarts. All was well.

Running on sunshine!

Summer is ice cream trucks and free concerts in the park, it’s lying on the grass sipping strawberry lemonade, and catching a glimpse of Manhattanhenge, when the sun aligns perfectly with the grid system of the city. Summer is screaming with abandon on amusement park rides, it’s checkered picnic blankets under canopies of green, it’s late night strolls along FDR drive with ice cream sandwiches. Summer is al fresco dining, outdoor movie screenings and kayaking. Summer is ephemeral, and hence infinitely precious…

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I read somewhere that August is the Sunday of summer. It’s the beginning of the end of a lovely time. Before you know it, the leaves will transition from a vivid verdant to fiery shades of yellow, orange and rust. They’ll gently drift down onto the lawns and walkways alike, crunching and whispering under your feet, ready to be raked away by some industrious soul into great big piles, which practically beg you to jump into them with a triumphant yell. Yes, autumn is all ablaze with color and cheerful crackling of merry flames in the fire, but it still signifies an ending of sorts – a wistful nostalgia of days gone past, the waning phase of the moon.

Summer, on the other hand, has rapidly become my favorite time of the year. This is hardly uncommon: it’s the norm, not the exception. However, this is the first year in my just-under-twenty-five revolutions around the sun that I’ve been this hyper about summer-lovin’. Back home in India, it was more of summer-likin’ … of course I would adore vacation time, long lazy afternoons spent devouring a new book, optimally positioned to get the maximum blast of  refreshingly cool air from the water cooler… evenings playing in sandboxes in my garden, running around with friends in the streets, playing different versions of hide-n’-seek, hopscotch, land-n’-water, red letter, crocodile crocodile, and of course the ever-popular sitoliya. Summer was uninterrupted stretches of time with family and friends, and train rides across the country to visit grandparents and cousins, uncles and aunts. Summer was picnics on beaches, and waves on the shore. Summer was languid strolls after dinner. Summer was all about juicy mangoes, coconut water and tyre swings. Summer always seemed to be a relaxed, more stretched-out period of time. But the downside of course, was that summer was always excruciatingly hot. Relentless heat waves, beads of sweat, the mercury reaching ridiculously high levels every coming year… needless to say, the monsoon season would be a blessed relief. Sure, school would start – but by this point I’d want to go back and see all my classmates and teachers once again (yup, I was that girl). Monsoons are beautiful and unpredictable, with growling skies, sudden flashes of lightning, and torrential rain on the parched soil, delighting crops and humans alike. The first rains would be eagerly awaited, and celebrated with energetic splashing in puddles, and sailing of paper boats.  So while the end of summer signaled a transition, it would always transition into something fresh and cleansing, something so joyously alive… that it always felt like a beginning rather than an end.

Summer in NYC may be just as languid and carefree, but so much more precious because there’s this sense of urgency, this gnawing knowledge that it is ephemeral, a few fleeting months which will whiz past before you can say “sunscreen lotion”. Summer here is balmy, yet nowhere close to the scorching blaze of Indian summers. I can count on one hand the number of times I’ve felt it’s too hot. The highest temperatures here have felt merely pleasant, or occasionally warm. I am always amused at native New Yorkers fanning themselves and complaining nonstop about how hot and humid it’s been. They’ll have the last laugh though, when I commence complaining about the bitter cold the very moment it dips to 60 °F. But till then, I am on a mission to soak up every last ray of sunlight I can access. And oh, there’s so much of it… in the midst of summer, the sun refuses to set till half past eight in the night. It’s so thrilling to walk out of lab at the end of a long tiring day, see the world still lit up in dappling sunshine and realize that hey, it’s NOT the end of the day yet! Summer is bright and cheerful, and the only time of the year you don’t have to layer your clothes. You don’t require sweaters and jackets of varying thicknesses, scarves, mittens, snow boots or fuzzy socks (although I do have a soft spot for fuzzy socks…), which have to be piled on or shrugged off based on your surroundings. Summer is ice cream trucks and free concerts in the park, it’s lying on the grass sipping strawberry lemonade, and catching a glimpse of Manhattanhenge, when the sun aligns perfectly with the grid system of the city. Summer is screaming with abandon on amusement park rides, it’s checkered picnic blankets under canopies of green, it’s late night strolls along FDR drive with ice cream sandwiches. Summer is al fresco dining, outdoor movie screenings and kayaking. Summer is bubble battles, and chalk doodles on the sidewalk. Summer is ephemeral, and hence infinitely precious. I’m going to hold on tight to these last few days of sunlit glory while it lasts.

Summer lovin’, havin’ me a blast!

Re-re-reading!

Reading a new book is like a roller coaster ride – the swoops and thrills, the fluttering in the stomach, the screaming, the thumping hearts, and the sheer giddiness of it all. Reading a new book is a joy, an exploration, a discovery. You don’t know what’s next, and what it’ll be like, but as long as it’s there, you’re along for the ride, and lovin’ every moment of it.

Re-reading a book, by contrast, might sound utterly boring. Where’s the newness, you’ll ask. Where’s the excitement? You already know what’s going to happen, where’s the suspense?! All I can say is, yes, re-reading is not a roller coaster ride. Re-reading a favorite story is like a walk in your neighbourhood park. You know where exactly the see-saw is, you know the kids who play there every evening, their carefree laughter and games. You know the mothers who bring their adorable babies in prams, the best spot to watch the sun set. Yes, there’s no adrenaline rush here. But you still go to the park once in a while, to relax, to unwind … just because it’s old and familiar.

So while reading something for a very first time is an experience in itself, it’s nice to re-read … and then re-re-read … go back to what is predictable and known, go back to something warm and comfortable. It’s like going back home and being hugged by your mom. Like drinking warm milk on a cold winter night. Like finding an old sweater in the attic, the one which you used to wear all the time a few years ago, and putting it on again, and even though it’s a little too snug now, it feels soft and warm and so comforting.

And therein lies my justification for reading my favorite books over and over again. 🙂